While walking to my work building from the parking lot this morning, I walked passed a dood in leather jacket.
He was smoking a cigarette and gave me a huge smile.
He said to me, "You look gorgeous today!"
I said, "Thanks" and kept walking toward my building.
About a block later, the dood apparently ran and caught up to me.
Dood: Hi! What is your name?
Me: ... ... ... ... (*hesitation) [Alixito]
Dood: My name is [K]
Dood: Do you have a boyfriend? I mean, I don't care, really, but do you have a boyfriend?
Me: No, I don't, and I don't want or need one. (if he really didn't care why the hell did he ask?)
Dood: Well, then what do you want?
Me: Nothing.
Dood: Nothing? Really? How about a big black boyfriend? (he's black, and big)
Me: I'm not looking right now.
Dood: You're not, huh? Well, if you change your mind and start looking again, I work at [blah blah blah] law firm.
Me: Are you a lawyer?
Dood: Yes, I am a lawyer. You are sooooo hot (he says this while checking out my ass). Come find me when you are ready.
Me: Hahaha OK. Sure.
I kept walking.
Good on him for being bold. But I don't date smokers. LOL
Reading a Buddhist article on dealing with jealousy, I come across this paragraph:
... it is an unrealistic expectation that any one person will be our special perfect match, like our "other half," who will complement us in all ways and with whom we can share every aspect of our lives. Such an expectation is based on the ancient Greek myth told by Plato that originally we were all wholes, who then were split in two. Somewhere "out there" is our other half; and true love is when we find and reunite with our other halves. Although this myth has become the foundation for Western romanticism, it does not refer to reality. To believe in it, like believing in the beautiful prince who will come to rescue us on a white horse, is an acquired, culturally specific phenomenon.
I agree.That's why if and when you find a person that feels just right, you do what you can to nourish it and grow it. Love is ever expanding, if you allow and welcome it.
I found out today that a previously very close friend of mine have locked down her twitter account and unfriended me in Facebook. There were previously misunderstandings but I thought we passed them because she told me that she forgave me and we were good. She even referred to me as her best friend. I guess it's all lip service. It is still hard for me to understand when people just end relationships like this so abruptly, without any explanation.
True friends are suppose to love/accept/forgive you no matter what and try work things out with you. I guess my definition of what a true friend is doesn't apply to other people's definitions and I need to realize that.
My life is full of mistakes, and I know that. But I welcome those mistakes so that I can learn from them and grow from them. I never ever do anything knowingly hurtful on purpose, ever. It's just not who I am. If you are a true friend to someone, you will do what it takes to be a true friend, even if it means telling them how they fucked up and hurt you so that they can realize and understand. Then you both can work pass this. I guess my friendship really is worth nothing to some people and it really saddens me.
I forgot to post these here. Whups. Got them done back in April-ish? :-) Finally... and now I want more!
In photo: Left (right wrist): Compassion, Right (left wrist): Love. Each with lotus flowers under the characters which symbolizes rebirth and renewal.
My brother's friend is a Chinese Medicine doctor! He studied with one of the best doctors in Florida and he now does this for only friends and families. I saw him today and he prescribed me a week's worth of medicine to brew. I just drank my 1st evening's dose... OMG so bitter. SO SO SO BITTER. Seriously so glad I have some chocolate to counter balance the yuck in my mouth. I hope this helps me. I am so tired of being sick all the time. My immune system blows chunks. Here's to hoping.
"Oopsies... my red unmentionable is showing..."
I cleaned, scrubbed and semi-organized! Gave away a car trunk load of clothes!
More to do, more to do!
Even cooked for friends on Sat night and went shopping on Sunday night too.
More to do more to do!
I will get my haus cleaned up this week, I hope. :)
